Questionable (?)

    Starting 2026 with a good step ahead. January has already passed, and here I am, sitting in front of my laptop, just starting a new series on my blog that will begin now. It's been two months since I last touched my laptop. It means life is quite busy these days. No have time just for looking at random things on my laptop, or just scrolling through my old memories on this laptop.

    2025 has gone by. It closed with memorable stories to be learned and evaluated. Thoughts on my noisy head, one by one, are getting answered in their own way. They have their own way to solve it. How? I don't know, actually. If I'm looking back on things I've done in the past, I would've blamed how crazy I was before. "Let's do it for the plot."  In 2025 alicia relied on that phrase so much until she realized she will getting played by that plot.

    Today, 25th February 2026 full of joy. Ramadhan Kareem. So many things to be grateful about. Health, Love, family, career, money, happiness, and many more. Ramadhan felt special when I could finally feel Eid pass by with full joy. I still could celebrated it with my family and my beloved ones. This blog has been postponed for exactly one month since I last wrote it the last time. Today, one month ahead of 25th March 2026, the first day went back to work after a week of holiday break. Refreshing my mind from all the hectic work and the target that haunts me every day. Break a leg for a moment, realizing how time flies fast now.

    The process to find out the realization of 'adulthood' made me think what would I be in the next 2 or 5 years. A mother of 2 kids? a grown up women who's busy to build her career? or a full happy household mom who is wasting her free time in pillates or casually sitting in an expensive coffee shop with her Ipad on and coffee in the right side of her hand.

    Turning 23 this year felt like I'm halfway to getting on my podium. What is the win prize that I'm hoping to get? A sustainable Cia who can afford all she needs without hesitation spent her day with all the members of her future family that she loves. Starting on a relationship made me think how can 2 strangers could be falling in love that hard. How weird, when now I could even imagine myself walking in a mall with my stroller in a fancy store just casually buying a pair of expensive shoes that I couldn't even afford in the future with my future kids and husband. How beautiful life is to be imagined.

Those thoughts turn into a question. "Could I be in that stage?"

    But life went well these days. going on a date every week, spending my days with my beloved ones, buying anything that I want with my own money, tired of working, but still manage to get a self-reward. But back again on random thoughts to be talked about on this episode. Are these thoughts just a representation of the "butterfly" version of Cia, or is it a good start to be mentally prepared for my future life? We'll see this in 2 or 5 years. These questionable questions will be answered in their own way.

    How funny it was when I even laughed when my friend asked me when I would be getting married? That's would be impossible on my list to do in the next few years. Kids? Not even my list to handle. But now, I even consider it lol. Let's fight hard for my own prize that I guarantee for myself in the future. Let's work harder to be financially stable, Cia. You can only rely on yourself to get that prize.